there is no wifi in the forest. but you'll find a better connection.
Well, I was getting restless and tired towards the end of 2019 and because I always made it a point to take a break during the holidays, I figured going offline once the New Year hit would be a great way to escape, take some time off social media and refresh to rejuvenate not just for myself physically but mentally and spiritually.
Took my good old sweet time and by January 2020, I was enjoying every moment of being partially away from social media. Everything was going real well until the pandemic hit..
Things changed. Dramatically. We were all locked up in our homes. We could not go out and the fear of actually catching the virus was so stressful that it honestly kept me up all night – I wasn’t scared for me, it was me being scared for my family. And I think this was a common worry for everyone. I know my friends had the same concerns as we all took up zoom calls just to catch up and check up on each other. We didn’t know what was actually going on, businesses closed down, people were losing jobs, their homes and everything was just so messed up that it basically screwed up our heads coz at one point, we were actually preparing for zombies to pop up (yes, my friends and i are that weird). We all made the most of it though, coping in our own way – some cooked, some took up a new hobby, some started small businesses, some even found love.
Me? I kept to myself. Social distancing was not hard coz I was always a homebody and I never really talked to anyone much, just my friends and family. I guess what made it difficult was being forced to not go out and social distance not just from random people, but from your own family and friends as well.
Oh and let’s not forget that all this was happening along with fires, floods and earthquakes across the word, the black lives matter movement, countries hitting each other with bombs and asians being assaulted on a daily because of the virus. It has not been good at all.
Now even if we are no longer technically under lockdown, there are still strict rules around the city. We can’t travel. We can’t have huge gatherings. Social distancing is now a common practice – if you can do it at home, do it at home. And we are required to wear masks everywhere, everyday, all day. Oh and do testing as frequent as possible and make sure you wash your hands!
That is 2020 for you.
I honestly thought of completely shutting down this blog but after much consideration, I realized that it was one of the things that helped me cope with a little pain back in the day, and as grateful as I am for being safe, and still thriving, I also think it is important to acknowledge the difficulty and the pain. How important it is to connect – to have someone to talk to, or have an outlet, or something to do. And for me, this is the easiest way to help me release some of that tension during this very challenging time. 2020 may not be over just yet, but I am hopeful that in a few months, as we welcome 2021, we can all move on and click reset.
And after all this time of being gone, if you are here reading this, hello.