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Well, I was getting restless and tired towards the end of 2019 and because I always made it a point to  take a break during the holidays, I figured going offline once the New Year hit would be a great way to escape, take some time off social media and refresh to rejuvenate not just for myself physically but mentally and spiritually.

Took my good old sweet time and by January 2020, I was enjoying every moment of being partially away from social media. Everything was going real well until the pandemic hit..

Things changed. Dramatically. We were all locked up in our homes. We could not go out and the fear of actually catching the virus was so stressful that it honestly kept me up all night – I wasn’t scared for me, it was me being scared for my family. And I think this was a common worry for everyone. I know my friends had the same concerns as we all took up zoom calls just to catch up and check up on each other. We didn’t know what was actually going on, businesses closed down, people were losing jobs, their homes and everything was just so messed up that it basically screwed up our heads coz at one point, we were actually preparing for zombies to pop up (yes, my friends and i are that weird). We all made the most of it though, coping in our own way – some cooked, some took up a new hobby, some started small businesses, some even found love.

Me? I kept to myself. Social distancing was not hard coz I was always a homebody and I never really talked to anyone much, just my friends and family. I guess what made it difficult was being forced to not go out and social distance not just from random people, but from your own family and friends as well.

Oh and let’s not forget that all this was happening along with fires, floods and earthquakes across the word, the black lives matter movement, countries hitting each other with bombs and asians being assaulted on a daily because of the virus. It has not been good at all.

Now even if we are no longer technically under lockdown, there are still strict rules around the city. We can’t travel. We can’t have huge gatherings. Social distancing is now a common practice – if you can do it at home, do it at home. And we are required to wear masks everywhere, everyday, all day. Oh and do testing as frequent as possible and make sure you wash your hands!

That is 2020 for you.

I honestly thought of completely shutting down this blog but after much consideration, I realized that it was one of the things that helped me cope with a little pain back in the day, and as grateful as I am for being safe, and still thriving, I also think it is important to acknowledge the difficulty and the pain. How important it is to connect – to have someone to talk to, or have an outlet, or something to do. And for me, this is the easiest way to help me release some of that tension during this very challenging time. 2020 may not be over just yet, but I am hopeful that in a few months, as we welcome 2021, we can all move on and click reset.

And after all this time of being gone, if you are here reading this, hello.

Comments: 21

  • Raysa Garcia
    October 22, 2020 10:00 am

    What a year!!! Def 2020 was something else!! I can’t complain too much tho! I’m alive, healthy and my loved ones. I just hope 2021 is a better year for us all. I believe God has control over all.??

    • mahryska
      October 22, 2020 11:06 am

      that is so true babe, i guess the take away from all this is that we are still all alive, well and still thriving. i hope all is well with you and so so glad to see you here, so grateful for the love. xx

  • Yvonne
    October 22, 2020 11:39 am

    Things have changed big time! Whoever thought something like this would affect us in such a way! Good that you decided to continue with your blog as long as you enjoy doing it!
    Stay positive Stay safe

    • mahryska
      October 22, 2020 12:26 pm

      yes exactly, our world has turned upside down and it jumped on us big time. i know we should all be grateful but i guess it is also important to acknowledge how difficult it is for others. and yes, i think that was one of the reasons why i decided to write again. to keep positive and hang on i guess 🙂 hope you are well too and keeping safe!! xx

  • Kathrine Eldridge
    October 22, 2020 2:10 pm

    So good to see you back! Stay strong and I look forward to more posts.

    • mahryska
      October 22, 2020 2:10 pm

      yes i am back officially. after some much needed break and surprising extension, i am here once again and hopefully sharing just a little bit more. glad to also see you here, so so grateful for the love so thank you so much and hope you are also keeping safe! xx

  • Shelbee on the Edge
    October 22, 2020 2:10 pm

    This year has been something else, hasn’t it? I have not minded the isolation so much either but now after 8 months of it, it is really effecting my mental health. Blogging has definitely kept me afloat and connected during this time, so I am glad to see that you are not giving it up yet. Cheers to a better 2021!


    • mahryska
      October 22, 2020 2:11 pm

      oh it certainly has – good and bad, the experience is certainly for the books. and you are right, i think for the most part it is our mental health that suffers most during the long isolation. it’s important to have someone to talk to or having something to do and always keeping check on yourself – and the people around you. connection at this time is so important. hope you are keeping safe xx

  • Simone
    October 22, 2020 4:16 pm

    I hope that we will soon find a solution to conquer the pandemic. Stay safe and healthy!

    xx Simone
    Little Glittery Box

    • mahryska
      October 23, 2020 9:39 am

      i know. it has been a challenge this year for all of us. hope you are keeping safe too!! xx

  • margot
    October 22, 2020 5:20 pm

    Such a crazy crazy year !
    I truly hope everything will get better next year.
    I’m also good at home but I just can’t wait to be free at traveling again and just to not be scared of getting sick.
    Stay safe.

    • mahryska
      October 23, 2020 9:39 am

      yes me too babe, i think we are all very much hopeful coz there really isn’t any other way to be. so here is to next year and us being able to reset and look forward to a better year. a safer year. for all of us. keep safe babe!! xx

  • jodie filogomo
    October 23, 2020 2:35 am

    I know exactly what you mean…it has been so hard this year. Yet sometimes I think our blogs are our little getaway.

  • avecamber
    October 23, 2020 6:30 am

    This has indeed been a crazy year, but one where all types of connections have become so important!

    I hope you are having a great week!



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    • mahryska
      October 23, 2020 9:39 am

      hi amber. yes thank you so much the week has been great and you are right, connection is so important now more than ever. hope you are safe too!! xx

  • Emily
    October 23, 2020 6:21 pm

    2020 has been one hell of a year! But I agree I am such a homebody that social distancing wasn’t the worst thing!

    • mahryska
      October 24, 2020 9:14 am

      hahaha right? us homebody people had it easy and really didn’t need time to get used to it. unfortunately it was a lot harder for those who were used to going out a lot. it was a nightmare for them and i think it did become such an issue when mental health became a problem for a lot of people. hope you are keeping safe tho even if things are now getting back to the “new normal” xx

  • Regine Karpel
    October 23, 2020 4:09 pm

    I’m glad you’re back. I continue because I need connection. Stay safe and well.

  • Angelica E
    October 23, 2020 11:27 pm

    Completely resonate with this. I thought about giving up on my site too and glad I pushed through. Better days ahead.

    XX Angelica

    • mahryska
      October 24, 2020 9:19 am

      awww glad you did not give up as well. to be honest, now that i am back, i actually feel a lot better. somehow, the ability to write my thoughts helps in coping and even though we are currently out of lockdown, we are still in the middle of a pandemic with still no actual real help in defeating it so being able to just escape out here gives me a sense of safety. hope it does for you too. keep safe babe xx

  • Dasynka
    October 23, 2020 9:34 pm

    This year is pretty difficult for everyone, even the ones like us not much into going out. Cause we feel that the world isn’t a safe place anymore.
    But hey, our world survived wars, colera, other pandemic so we’ll do. we’ll go out of this.
    But we need to protect our mental health and having a blog is part of this, don’t shut it down 🙂 by the way I love so so much the aesthetic of it!
    xx Dasynka

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